So we moved the date up again.
Actually not our decision this time... the church kinda had a miscommunication and double-scheduled us with a prayer conference the same weekend. Ooops.

JANUARY 5th.
...Invitations are ordered ...no more date changes.

Although, at times I get so frustrated with all the planning. The invitations. The reception. The decorations. The little tiny details that people ask me about-- like what kinda table decorations do I want. You know what? I really don't care. I don't care about flowers; I don't care about parking; I don't care about pew bows; I don't care about the size font on my invitations; I don't care if the candles are yellow, red, white, or if they have COWS on them! I don't care about how "elegant" or "informal" the reception is.
I DONT CARE.
I heard that there's a high percentage of elopes for long engagements. I see why.
Not that our engagement is long by any stretch of the word... just that I don't think I could put up with wedding planning for 10 months or a year. No way. And people really don't take me seriously when I say I don't care.
Should I care? I mean really, I'm just not uptight about the minor details.
I just want the ceremony to glorify God. I want it to be pleasing to Him.
I just simply want to marry the man God has blessed me with. No details matter.
We didn't even want a reception really... neither of us had peace with spending 1000's of dollars on a wedding. But my dad really insisted on having a reception. So we're doing it.

There are kids starving in Africa... do you think I care about table cloths?

I'm relatively calm the majority of the time; I promise.
The thing I'm having the most fun with is the slide show for the reception... not cake arrangements.
After a frustrating afternoon I begged him to lets just get married next weekend.
He decided that wasn't a rational decision... I'm glad he's sane when I'm not.

Okay wow.
My head is basically spinning right now.
For the past hour or so I was looking at my old XANGA site. That was a crazy experience. How much has changed since a year ago!!!
Daniel was in Iraq.
Ashley and I did basically everything together.
Laura and I really weren't close yet.
I worked at the daycare & didn't eat meat.
I was absolutely, completely, no reservations, head-over-heels, ON FIRE for the Lord.
Wow.
And now Ashley and I are getting married.
Laura is in Mexico (Praise Jesus! no doubt)
Briana is in Cookeville.
Wow.

Continuing to read on and just seeing how Laura and I got closer... and then reading through at some of our "inside jokes" *I'm gonna go Waodoni on you* (Remember that? lol)
Man... made me kinda miss you Laura.
Made me kinda know exactly what I was talking about in one of my posts when I said this life is a vapor.
Oh how it really is. What are we doing?

This weekend at my aunt's kinda drained me. On one hand-- it was a lot of fun. Relaxing. It was nice to ask "hey what time is it" and Dustin say "I don't know" and that be OK! No schedule. Just relaxing. Him and my uncle got along so well too. Which was great.
On the other hand... the indifference of that community was sickening. To both of us actually. It's one of those "ritzy" communities where everyone has money and drives big, new SUVs and luxury cars. Where everyone has their kids up and show them off-- they're spoiled rotten. Just kinda spiritually draining.
After the Thomas Young conference, and (yet another) devotional out of My Utmost, God is speaking to me. Revealing things to me. Which I praise Him for.
Please pray for me.

Just wanted to update again cuz I haven't.
I need some intentional solitude with my King right now though.
(Never enough of that. )

PS. If no one knew... I adore Judy Rogers. God is so good to me to have her in my life.
I know you all know what I mean.